What is vital, isn’t always humane

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on June 20, 2011 by fluttergirl87

Tomorrow’s Berlin and Slipknot, and I’m trying in vain to hype myself up about it. But the truth is… I have to be on a goddamn tram at half past six in the morning, to get a train at seven, to get a plane at nine, to land at half past ten… and not be able to check into my hotel until three that afternoon. Now who the hell though that would be a good idea? Argh.

Plus, I’m really not keen on wandering around Berlin on my own, you know? I’m not the most confident person in the world (or at all), and talking to people frightens me enough when it’s in English, let alone German. Which, coincidently, I do not speak.

Slipknot will be awesome. I just need to get to that point. You know… finding my way to the venue. Sigh.

Let’s be honest…

Posted in Uncategorized on June 17, 2011 by fluttergirl87

I always have these grand ideas and schemes. But they never seem to get passed the planning phase, or the first step. Because, in short, I’m a quitter. And I’m slowly learning that there’s no shame in admitting it; the shame lies in allowing it to continue.

Being a quitter by nature, I still have some vague notion that my potential could be AMAZING (don’t we all though), so… I figure it’s about time to try to live up to it. Any of it, even the smallest part of it. Which means I cannot back down. This could be the worst idea of my life, or the greatest.

Background might help, perhaps. The entirety of my relatively short life (how short isn’t the point here, or the fact it’s not as short as I feel it is… well… I’m still off 25 by… two years… *sigh* whoops, rant…) has been spent living in a small…ish… town near Sydney, Australia. Two years ago, I travelled overseas for a month; huge deal for me, loved it, always planned on going back. Didn’t figure that it would be for a max. of two years, however. The idea was that I would go back again this year, for four months. I agonised over this decision, despite wanting to go, all because I wasn’t fully willing to do it alone. And then, roughly… four months, less probably, and thanks to a few recurring characters in my life (aka friends and colleagues), I decided to MOVE to London. To live, to work, to grow up a little. Not to say I want to come back with an extensive knowledge of mortgages and the ins and outs of… I don’t know, Wall St... but I mean… to learn to be stronger, and survive on my own. And, again, to be honest… because something had to change.

Luckily, I’m not going to be alone in this, as I have a friend doing the same thing. So we can both freak out together when the time comes, but I’m getting ahead of myself here. Before we get to the new life kind of stuff, I’ve got a lot of hanging around to do. So, as of 8.30am GMT + 10 yesterday, I’ve had 4 hours sleep… damn planes… two long flights later, and I’m sitting in my sister’s lounge room in the Netherlands. So there’s a bit of downtime before “real life” hits, which is good, but it also means there will be more “oh shit, what am I doing” moments… which comprises of the first half of this… entry?? Eh… anyway. Feeling better about it now. What was the point again? Jetlag. Yes, messes with your mind a bit. I haven’t had much time to really think about what I’m doing here, and that was one of the first of many times where I’ll question it and think of turning back. Which, there you go, brings us back to the point. I can’t give up this time. And, hopefully, I’ll actually stick to updating you all (ha, no one reads this!) on here. And maybe I’ll actually go through with it when I say I’m going to review (not really) a concert or an experience.

Next week I’m going to Berlin to see Slipknot… and then Munich to see Linkin Park. Also (and I found this out this morning after landing, during that weird hyper phase of delirium) I get to meet Linkin Park before the show… again 🙂 *sigh* another idea that never got off the ground… they had one of their International Summits last year in Sydney, which I was lucky enough to attend. I started writing about it, and four pages in, I hadn’t even gotten past the backstage tour, let alone to the actual meeting. Long story short, awesome. And, after never ever imagining that I would meet the people being this music that means so damn much to me, I now get a second chance to do it right (meaning… not act like a nervous douchebag… ha… I’ll let you know how that goes).

So… there’s a few things to look forward to. Still time to stress about this decision. About what I should and shouldn’t worry about. But I suppose all I can do is just take it as it comes. Another learning curve.

Hmm… friendly warning kiddies… don’t fly and blog. You come out with some strange stuff that maybe doesn’t even mean anything in the end.

Well, at least it filled in some time. And I don’t feel as… lost.

Ah, speak of the devil. Numb just came on the radio. Thanks guys. You’re saving me again.

An initial and completely unrefined reaction to The Social Network

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on October 27, 2010 by fluttergirl87

Holy. Shit. It was awesome!

No, seriously. I want to watch it again. Now.

Thanks to Triple J for the double pass (free stuff is even better when said stuff is… well… awesome…) and to my wonderful friend, Miss Bennet, for allowing for such an interesting night. I still smell like hand sanitiser, by the way, thanks to an exploding bottle…

The soundtrack was brilliant; thank God for Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross.

Um… this might get, you know, redone over the next few days. The amount of “awesome”s need to be reduced… but you know what? It’s 11.16pm, and I have to work tomorrow. Blah.

… what was the point of all this again?

Oh yeah… The Social Network = awesome.

The Anti-Social Network

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , on October 26, 2010 by fluttergirl87

So, one day, when I’m bored enough but somehow motivated (so… not now, while I’m just bored), I’ll write some reviews of… stuff… ie. A Thousand Suns (better late than never, right?) and The Smashing Pumpkins gig I went to recently (here’s a tip… never go to watch Billy Corgan after half a bottle of tequila…)… you know… because… well, just because. And though the idea that people will READ said reviews and absolutely revel in my opinions (ha), I know that I’ll be lucky to even have ONE person stumble across this. But, you know… maybe… eventually… hmm anyway.

Yes, I am bored, and there was a point to this… somewhere… oh yeah, The Social Network. Advanced screening tomorrow night… thoughts on it the night after.

… woop woop. Free stuff.

Hello world here’s a song that we’re singing… please make me happy?

Posted in Welcome mat with tags , on October 15, 2010 by fluttergirl87

Well, how about that. I was planning on actually starting a blog (and by starting, I mean… getting another one… and sticking to it… HA) and, by accident, stumbled onto this site. So, thank you Mike Shinoda for jumping on the Sad Keanu bandwagon. Not only did you make my day, but you also led me here… for in order to say “Oh Mike, you just made my day”, I had to sign up… and then came the little blog option, and here we are.

So, um… bare with me… I have been known to be amusing on the odd occasion, and outraged for the most. So… you know… if you find anger amusing, then this might be your lucky day!

… or not.

My God, I’m bored.

… thrilling so far, isn’t it?